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| [Saturday, February 23, 2008 at 12:11 am] |
| Subject: LJ |
I too am copying and jumping ship. Following Yibble to LJ. I'm Yeksimok. |
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| [Tuesday, November 27, 2007 at 4:19 pm] |
| Subject: one on one |
So I got stuck in a one on one again, but this time I snatched one of the notebooks off the desk to play with. Usually I just bring in a cart computer, but I was right there and had to go quick. I grabbed the notebook because it was handy and I had just a little charting left to do. I finished my charting and now and just playing with the different things on the notebook. I like the little pen that subs as a mouse however don't like where it's stored. Needs to be closer to the keyboard so when I put it down to type I can pick it up again quick. |
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| [Thursday, November 22, 2007 at 5:38 pm] |
| Subject: Happy Turkey Day |
Happy Turkey Day all!! I am SO thankful for everyone that has (and continues to be) supporative of Harmony and I through our tough times. |
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| [Tuesday, November 20, 2007 at 8:42 am] |
| Subject: custody |
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Ok so I had a lot of people worried with my last couple of blogs, but things are going better today. Court went as good as could be expected. There was a scarry moment where Rob told my lawyer he wanted more time, but then with a few well spoken words he changed his mind.
It comes down to us dividing most of the bills, and neither is holding the other to allimony.
In terms of custody I now have full custody of Harmony. Rob has visitation rights but that's not something we could put a complete stop to. Rob and I agreed he'd get to see her once a month (as long as he keeps up on payments). His visits are restricted that he has to come down here and see her. He can't take her more than 25 miles outside of the Galena area, isn't aloud to have her overnight, and he's bared from having any alchol or illegal subtances when he's visiting.
Basically I'm very happy with the total out come. |
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| [Sunday, November 18, 2007 at 10:56 am] |
| Subject: life? |
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Blogging is interesting because you're supposed to write stuff that matters. I write stuff that matters but not stuff that matters about me. I don't know why I don't write about myself. Maybe I'm just too shy.
I have my feelings wrapped around someone right now, but I'm not into being in a relationship. I want to be divorced. Divorce sucks ass and I just wish I could fast forward until it was done. I'm so stressed out right now I'm barely sleeping and yet my brain is so fried I can't really carry on a normal conversation. I don't feel normal, I don't think I'm normal right now. I want to be me again. I want to be happy all the time again.
There are two people in my life right now that make me really happy. One I see all the time and one I wish I could see more. Life sucks that way because the things you really want never land right in your lap. You have to work really really hard to get things to sort of become what you want it to be and then it all ways goes wrong anyway. Life sucks! I'm tired of life sucking. I know I've worked harder than this so my life doesn't suck, but everytime I seem to get pointed in the right direction again I fall off another cliff.
The best annalogy for me getting married when and how I did is that I was drunk driving on the road of life, got into a fender bender (that's getting pregnant), got back in the car and rolled it (that was getting married). I just wish I could get a new car and start over. I'm really not happy right now. I'm probably dealing with more than my normal share of depression. I hate feeling depressed. I hate that it makes me cry to think my daughter is spending Thanksgiving with someone else's family. I want her to spend Thanksgiving with me, but that can't happen because I have to work. Even if I get called off I have to send her before I know so if I get called off I get to sit in my own house all by my own self on Thanksgiving. (Where's the wine?)
I just want a normal life. I just want a happy life. I still want my dream of the perfect family. However I no longer what "the perfect family" is. It used to be me married to one guy, and having 3 to 5 kids, all with the same father. No divorce, no drugs, no gambling. Well Rob ruined that for me. So, what now? Where do I go from here? I feel lost? Does anyone have a map for the state of confusion? |
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| [Friday, September 28, 2007 at 8:54 am] |
| Subject: More Civil War |
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| [Tuesday, September 25, 2007 at 12:48 pm] |
| Subject: this is actually pretty accurate |
Your Personality is Very Rare (INFP)
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Your personality type is dreamy, romantic, elegant, and expressive.
Only about 5% of all people have your personality, including 6% of all women and 4% of all men
You are Introverted, Intuitive, Feeling, and Perceiving.
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| [Monday, September 10, 2007 at 4:56 pm] |
| Subject: Codeine |
Codeine does funny things to me like makes me dizzy and have wierd dreams, but it's the only thing that will take the pain away in my throat.
I have another really bad sore throat that is just a viral infection. Nothing really bad or highly infectious. It just hurts a lot. The bad news is there is nothing that can be done except treat they symptoms. However my wonderful fabulous doctor (well actually she's a nurse practitioner) is trying to help me get my medical records from all over the country so we can establish a pattern of these sore throats and get insurance to cover me seeing an ear, nose and throat specialist. Maybe one day getting my tonsils out (which is something that will really scare me because it's hard when you're an adult to have your tonsils out). I still don't know if I want my tonsils out but if it stops me from getting these sore throats every 3 months it's deffinately something to consider. |
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| [Friday, September 7, 2007 at 11:21 pm] |
| Subject: Sarcastic ... at two? |
This morning ...
Me: Harmony what do you want for breakfast
Harmony: I don't know
Me: How about some eggs?
Harmony: Sure
Me: How do you want them cooked?
Harmony: In the pan, mom |
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| [Tuesday, September 4, 2007 at 10:01 am] |
| Subject: October 12, 13 and 14 |
People in period dress, guns, scrounging for food, goofing off in costume, a tea party and a ball, sounds like an Eleanor production ... only it's not. There's a Civil War Reenactment on the weekend of October 12,13 and 14. It's in Manooka, IL (near Chicago), and I'll be there. Anyone who wants to see me e-mail me or something and come visit. As a bonus it's my birthday weekend and if I can convince my parents to take Harmony I'll be ready to party. |
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| [Thursday, August 9, 2007 at 10:25 am] |
| Subject: I hope this works |
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| [Monday, August 6, 2007 at 9:36 am] |
| Subject: Lessons learned in the pouring rain |
This past weekend was the reenactment in Boscabel WI. It was a large event and I had a fantastic time. The biggest downfall was it rained practically the whole weekend. About the only time it didn't rain was durning the battles. It was also dry when we planned to go to the ball. However during the middle of the ball a huge storm cell showed up. Pouring rain and large gusts of wind. I decided that standing under an open pavilion wasn't the best idea in a storm so when there was a break in the rain I ran for it! By the time I got to the other side of the suttler tents I couldn't breath at all and I still had a ways to go. I made it back to camp and tried to get out of my clothes (I understand why they had slaves to dress them). Then only thing that was damages was the string for my hoop skirt and I survived. The moral of my story is if you have asthma normally when you run it will be even wrose if you run in a corset.
I went to a garden tea party and got my own tea cup. The other thing I did that was really fun was play a nurse for the medical team. I took water to the troops. |
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| [Wednesday, July 25, 2007 at 2:30 am] |
| Subject: more on my life |
I'm bad about updating. I know I am, but I just can't help it. I just don't have the time. Ok now that I've got the excuses out of the way ... My life is going along just great! I'm really getting back into the swing of it.
First off my job is still going along fantistically. I'll be here at Mercy 6 months in just a couple more weeks ... (August 8th). I think we're through the slowest part of the summer because we seem to have more and more patients every night (however that can change in a matter of hours). This is the second night in a row that I've put in over time, however neither night was on my home floor (both were on skilled/rehab). I'm sitting in a 1:1 with a patient that is content to sleep. I have no problem with this seeing as it aloud me to finish Harry Potter 7 and write this blog.
Harmony is wonderful and amazes me every day. She is such a smart little kid. Even though I still call her my baby she really isn't a baby anymore. She speaks in clear full sentences and had started playing by her self and pretending. She likes playing in the park on the playground and Grandpa Bob even taught her to climb the rock wall. I don't know how I feel about her climbing the rock wall but I guess she had to learn sometime.
I have a boyfriend now. He's sweet and so far our relationship has been long distance, but he's been looking to move back to the Dubuque area for a few years. I guess I was enough of a push and he just got a job this past week. He's in town this week looking for a place to live, but I havn't seen much of him because of the extra time at work. I'm not letting it get me down though because we got to spend the whole weekend on his parents farm together. We had a lot of fun picking black berries and just being together. He is the one that got me into Civil War Reenacting, and next weekend we have an even in Boscabel WI. Anyone that wants to come is welcome ... I'll be with the 1st Lousianna also known as the Zouaves. Right now I'm trying to finish my ball gown before Boscabel ... I just have to sew on a few more hook and eyes. At the last event in Polo IL I found a group of women camped together and hung out with them for most of the weekend. At the end of the weekend one of the women gave me a ball gown under two conditions. One I have to finish the gown and wear it, and two, when I get my own ball gown made I need to pass it onto someone else that is just starting in reenacting and doesn't have that many dresses yet. I want to get two or three work dresses and maybe a tea dress and a traveling dress before I make my own ball gown. It'll be a couple years I'll bet.
Anyway if anyone knows where to get corsettes, parasalls or hoops let me know. Miss you all. |
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| [Sunday, June 3, 2007 at 11:14 pm] |
| Subject: Happy birthday Yibble |
Happy Birthday Yibble! |
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| [Friday, May 25, 2007 at 9:13 am] |
| Subject: Wedding Yeah!! |
Happy Good Wedding Vibes Brittany!! Good luck in your future! |
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